Family Vacation

The one thing about cancer is it not only jolts you awake, it literally kicks you in the ass. When you think, even for one second, that you are going to die soon it is true that your life flashes before you. Not only the life that you have lived, but more heartbreaking the life you may not get to live.

Which leads to me now. On our mini-family vacation on the North Shore. At the end of day one, which included travel, sight seeing, shuffle board and hiking, we concluded the evening sitting around a campfire roasting marshmallows and singing along with the guitar player. It was perfect and I found myself saying a silent prayer prayer of gratitude.

I am so completely happy and yet deep down so completely scared. This could have been all taken away from me. I am doing great and feeling great but damn it was close. So close to going a different direction with my diagnosis. I am told that this fear of cancer returning doesn't ever truly go away but eventually you make peace with it and for me, make peace with God.

I am working on it but for this weekend I am going to enjoy myself. I am going to watch the sun rise over Lake Superior. And then I am going to go flying down the mountain with my children on an alpine slide. Life is good right now and I am good right now.